Examz are finally done with... Five years of Architecture ends.. just like that... All of us are yet to come to terms with being 'graduates'. I personally don't want to. Too much responsibility... just when i was getting to be so comfortable being an escapist. On top of it the Huge stigma of being 'aimless'. Don't blame anybody for calling me that though. It's not their fault i'm born in the wrong time. Maybe I should have lived say 100 years back, you know married at age of 10, a mother of 6 at the age of 22, widowed by the age of 35 (considering my hubby would either be 20 years older or the victim of some obsure disease... :) Simple haan? No…I guess it wouldn’t be simple even then…. but its fun to visualize nonetheless…. :)
'Aim', 'Success', 'Failure'.... Big words... still meaning different things to different people.. Why should someone else decide if you're successful? Or if you're a failure? Isn't that for you to decide? Where your success lies.. where your peace of mind lies..Of course there are conventional yardsticks to measure you... but does that count really? Perhaps it does.. but in the 'bigger picture'? Who's to judge? As for me, irrespective of what i end up doing, i'll judge myself...and while i'm at that, be biased big time... :)
4 comments:
ur a gud blogger...
Thanks lo... :)
I dont have to compliment you everytime on your amazing writing skills....look i just did it again :)
I feel whenever you write, u think that u r this dreamer, sometimes confused,...but on the contrary, i feel you are very clear on your thoughts about what u dont want from life...which as i had mentioned before is a great thing...To know wht you dont want is an achievement in itself .
I completely agree when you say who decides failure and success..its just how you percieve sucess and failure..
To me failing in an exam would be a destiny guiding me to a new path in life which is more interesting and adventerous finally calling it a greater success but for someone else, it might be the end of road...leading the person to suicide...
This is a very small example ...but when we look at this in a holistic way in life, it still holds true.
Sometimes i really feel to break away from the yardstick measurements of success in life and joining Osho for peace of mind...When i come bak home after work, i wonder what i did today? what have i achieved? what if i dint do what i did today? probably someone else wud have done it and work still wud have been over...
Well, i guess this is how it is...
Thanks so much Antra.. i agree i'm clear about my thoughts.. and i know what i don't want.. but that does not mean there's an absence of confusion.. which is good you know... i think confusion is healthy.. :)
i can relate to you when you say you wonder what you've ahieved during the day... so often we feel, whatever we do has no part to play in the bigger picture. My Dido calls this the feeling to move towards a Higher Purpose... i think, too, that we need to find our Higher Purpose.. but to achieve that we can't desert our duties or our jobs!! :) especially people like you who are actually doing what they love... just carry on with it, and one day your Purpose might just hit you out of nowhere... and that day on you can move towards it... :)
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